Sunday, April 29, 2012

Logan is Home!

Just a short and sweet note to let you all know that we were able to bring Logan home yesterday! We have had 2 really great days in a row... Most negative behavior has been redirectable and when it hasn't been (only twice) he has taken his time-outs with minimal fuss! He is on a combination of Respirdal, Trileptal, and Focalin. This combo seems to be working much better than before. We are working on behavior training and modification. His speech has astounded us because he has slowed himself down and can actually speak clearly. He sounds so much older! It's amazing to see him able to sit for more than 2 minutes and have an actual conversation where he will look into our eyes. He has not been able to do this prior to this last week.

Thank you for all of your prayers, suggestions, and support. I just adore all of you!!!

I will write a longer post later when I am not so tired and can collect my thoughts! ;)


Wednesday, April 25, 2012

A Heavy Heart

As most of you know, Logan has struggled with his behavior for a while now. He has been going to therapy, we have done family therapy, and he has been prescribed a few different medications. This is not something I am proud of...and to be honest I feel kind of like I have failed him. I have tried everything I know, have learned, and can possibly think of to try and curb his outbursts, tantrums, and meltdowns. They are just a constant battle for himself and our family.

This past week while we were in his psychiatrist office and were discussing what change we should make - he tried to interupt us while we were talking. He wanted to play on my phone, but the problem was I didn't have my phone. The office of his dr has a no cell phone policy and it was in the car. This sent him into a fit which consisted of him throwing himself onto the floor, kicking, screaming, hitting, etc. His dr looked at me with a concerned look and said "I think it's time to admit him for observation."

I am still in a fog. I have all of the "what-if's" running through my head. Ugh! We have been told that it will be roughly 5-7 days. He was admitted Monday evening @ 7:30 p.m. Yesterday they did a 24 hour observation - he does group activities, school, gym, story time, group therapy, goal setting, etc. We are allowed to see him anytime (with special priviledges from the dr). Normally the parents are only allowed to see the child at lunch time and dinner time. We are blessed that we are able to come and go and be as involved in his action plan as possible. I spend the majority of the day with him and only leave for his school time, therapy time, and group sessions so that way they can evaluate him in those circumstances where I am not normally with him. The staff is amazing. We have the most devoted, loving, and caring staff I have ever seen. You can tell they all do this job because they love children.

If you are sad or upset that I have not personally called you - I APOLOGIZE! I cannot be on the phone without crying! My heart literally feels like it is broken. I spend of my life with him. He is my life and my world revolves around him. It just does. He has required so much of my attention for the last 5 years that him taking 100% of my attention has become normal. This is THE HARDEST thing I have ever gone through. I never thought something like this would happen to our family. It is so hard not to be embarrassed by the fact that I couldn't control him. The doctors keep reminding me that no matter how hard I tried, how hard we tried, you cannot control a chemical imbalance. It is impossible. :(

If you are reading this and do not agree with our method of treatment, I am truly sorry, but this is the best thing for Logan. I guarantee you that you have never been in this situation if you are judging it. I used to think this kind of thing was for parents who didn't have a clue or didn't try their hardest...and I will fully admit that I was wrong. It is the hardest thing I have ever gone through...and again I just wish there was something I could have done sooner. If you pray, please pray for our family. Please pray hard for Logan and his actions. Pray that they find the right medication and dosages quickly so that we aren't away from him for too long and that when he is released that he be healed and have new techniques to help curb his aggression.

Thank you for taking the time to read and catch up on our sweet boy (he really can be sweet). I know we will get through this and this will all be a thing of the past soon. I just can't wait to get there.


Friday, April 6, 2012

Our last month in pics!

Forgive me for not updating the blog... It got put on the back burner due to our move! We are now settled in and loving the new neighborhood, school system, etc! :) It was such a smooth move and transition. We are so blessed and thankful. God has showered us with so many blessings this year already!

Before I share pics I have some more awesome news to share with you all!!! Logan has been released from OT and PT! He is now age appropriate with his muscular coordination and sensory issues. I know there will be some little things that will be ongoing, but nothing this momma isn't equiped to handle! He is still in speech therapy and probably has a little ways to go, but we are making progress by leaps and bounds in this area, too! He is also seeing a new children's psychiatrist that is regulating his medications, and we have been thrilled by the progress she has made with him in the short ammount of time we have been with her. Once again, so much to be thankful for!

Now onto pictures since it would probably take me forever and a day to try and tell each and everyone of you what all we did this past month:

Girls first day @ new school!
(they love it)

 Neil and The Kiddos @ The Home and Garden Show:
(not the best pic, but I just wanted to take the pic and get away from the reptile!!!)

 Logan getting all trimmed up for Easter!

Gracie and Logan @ The Outdoor Show:

Our Neighborhood Park...
(It's been an unusually warm Spring. We had 80 degree weather in March - In INDIANA)

Mr. Logan just a swingin':

Educational time with Mommy @ Science Central:
(On Friday's he doesn't have preschool so I try and make that our mommy and me time)

That is it for now guys! I need to do a birthday post for Emily and Easter is almost here, too! So I need to snap some Spring Pics of my sweetie pie's! :)

Thanks for visiting!